Hi

i love you. I care about you. What don't you get? I'm a good person. I'm genuine, I swear. I don't even know you, but I'd take a huge stab for you. I'd take bullet. I'd take a fucking samori sword for you! i'd do anything. You look like an alien? well you are the most beautiful alien i've ever seen. Why don't you love me too? You know i'd do anything for you! You know i'm like MAXIM hott? right? I'd fucking kill a whole entire generation for you, and I'm a peacemaker. I go to group hangs. I go to places i don't even feel comfortable. And i do it all to see your face. Because it's comforting. Because I love you with all of me. Because When i see you're face, i see this inevitable, uncontrollable, glow around your head, like you are a king or something. WHY!? idk i wish i knew I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!!! for not even caring a little fraction of how much i care for you... or not even putting a fraction of AS MUCH EFFORT AS I PUT IN FOR YOU! I WILL LAY MY FUCKING BEING DOWN.FOR WITHOUT YOU, I AM WORTHLESS.

Boxcar Racer

because i need you more than you need me
because i want you more i know

because we move too fucking fast
i think i really had to wish to make this last i know

i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you would

because i cared way more
because i really felt that you felt so much more i know

celebzies

Celebs I’d hook up with:
1. Bold the names of guys you’d definitely get with.
2. Italicize the names of guys you might get with after a little persuasion.
3. Leave the guys who you’re not attracted to.
4. Strike the guys you wouldn’t touch with a ten-foot pole.
Rupert Grint ---strike
Samuel L. Jackson lol
Hayden Christensen
Ian Somerhalder
Shia Labeouf
Patrick Stump
Hugh Grant
Colin Firth
Billy Zane
Leonardo Di Caprio
Chris Brown ---STRIKE---fuck no! haha i don't like getting beat
Vin Diesel
Paul Walker
Ryan Sheckler
James Marsden
Simon Cowell
Joe Jonas----strike
Pete Wentz
Bradley Cooper
Elijah Wood
Tobey McGuire
James Franco
Nick Jonas
Emile Hirsch
Tom Welling
Kanye West
Ryan Gosling
Jason Segel
Orlando Bloom
Michael Trevino?
Matt Lanter
Johnny Depp
Paul Rudd
Bill Hader
Justin Timberlake
Kevin Jonas ----strike! i dont need to push him farther in the closet
Zac Efron ----STRIKE!
Robert Pattinson
Jude Law
Matt Prokop
Daniel Radcliffe
Christian Bale ---i'm scared
Corbin Bleu
Taylor Lautner
Ed Westwick
Justin Bieber
David Henrie
John Stamos
Kevin Smith
Shane Dawson
Jon Gosselin---strike
Davedays
Ricky Martin --gay
Ben Affleck
Jared Leto
Chris Pine
Brandon Flowers Evan Peters
Gerard Butler
Ashton Kutcher
David Beckham
Danny Jones?
Kellan Lutz
Chris Evans
Jonathan Rhys Meyers?
William Beckett?
Eric Dane
Kris Allen----strike
Chris Colfer---gay
Adam Lambert --gay
Jared Padalecki
Hugh Jackman
Russell Brand
Robert Downey Jr
Joseph Gordon-Levitt
Brad Pitt---not post-angie
Channing Tatum--- his body, not his face
Levi Johnston---STRIKE! VOMIT.
Nicholas Hoult
Hunter Parrish
Owen Wilson ---strike, sorry owe!
Chace Crawford
Matthew Morrison
Chris Cornell
Pierce Brosnan
John Mayer---STRIKE. ew
Penn Badgley
Milo Ventimiglia
Tom Delonge(times a million) (i love you)
David Archuleta---i'd feel like i'm raping a baby elf
Michael Buble
Ryan Reynolds
Adam Levine (only in 2004)
Jeremy Sumpter
Luke Pasqualino
Jake Gyllenhaal
Ben McKenzie
Drake Bell
Adam Brody
Joel Madden
Logan Lerman
Adam Lazzara?
Craig Owens?
Zach Braff
Trace Cyrus ---strike
Bruno Mars ---strike, your not amazing
Johnny Knoxville
Micheal Jackson ---i'm not a necrophiliac, or a macaully culkian
Prince ---strike, he wears assless purple suits
Paul McCartney
Josh Hutcherson
Jason Earles
Criss Angel
Tom Brady
Nikki Sixx
Matthew Perry
Alexander Skarsgard
Teddy Gieger
Shane West
Ryan Seacrest ---strike
Paolo Nutini
Adam Sevani
Jim Sturgess
Jon Bon Jovi
Gerard Way
Stephen Colbert
Justin Long
Enrique Iglesias ---strike
Jonah Hill
Mitch Hewer
Snoop Dogg
Barack Obama ---illuminati, hypocrite
Chord Overstreet
Cam Gigandet
Cristiano Ronaldo

This is what it has come down to

drinking. at home. alone. and finding funny youtube videos. to pass the time.

I've officially fucking lost my mind

WHAT THE FUCK! my mind is GONe!, i'm not even a person anymore. i mean there are BILLIONS, fucking BILLIONS!, of people in the world! WHERE THE FUCK ARE THEY! why in the HELLLLLLLL am i alone? this world is made up of houses and streets and buildings ALL FILLED with other human beings, whyyyyyyyyyyy are they not here. why have i not met them. why don't they know me. why don't they give a shit. i cannot be alone anymore. honestly, i used to be great with it. used to it. but then this one day, i just walked outside, and i introduced myself to the world. and i was soo vulnerable. and i gave EVERYTHING i had to give. and i recieved nothing in return after i drained myself of generosity. and now, all the people are gone, and the only voice in my head is my own, and there is this music blaring and it's the only thing keeping me alive right now, besides the obvious, brain, heart, lungs, all that shit. i am waiting, i have been waiting, its all i do, and now theres fucking water in my eyes again, and i'm trying so hard to let it dissolve and not fall down my face, or i'll just break, i'll crack, just crumble and become dust, and some fucking rich ass housewife can hire a fucking maid to wipe me up with some mr.clean or a swiffer duster or some shit. my brain is hurting me, my heart is hurting me, my lungs are so strained, my skin is bruised, and my muscles are mangled, where the fuck is everyone? i keep calling and sending out messages and fucking smoke signals and i'm getting no response. i refuse to live like tom hanks in castaway again, because i dont even have a fucking fed ex box with a volleyball in it that i could wipe my blood from my hand on, creating a face, and a name, like wilson. why am i the only person in the world who is so consistently ALONE. I Live for these people, but they aren't paying attention and it's really taking a tole on me.

I MISS BLINK 182 :(