I could write a whole book on

getting ditched.
It should be called "Getting dressed, then Getting Ditched" or "Getting Ready for Nothing" or "Waiting... 4 hrs. later. 'Fuck'!" or "Why'd you tell me you'd take me, then?" or "Your Call Has Been Forwarded to an Automated Voice Message System" or "Unanswered Texts"

The Cycle:
-Makeup
-Clothes
-Sit
-Listen to Music
-Wait
-Continue to wait
-Text
-Call
-No one answers texts or calls
-Post angry shit on facebook and blog
-Wait some more, in case
-Realize there's no such thing as "in case"
-Engage in self-hatred for not having a driver's license
-Wash Face
-Take off clothes
-Lay in bed
-Computer
-Netflix, or TV
-More Music
-(occasionally shots of tequila, and crying)
-See the uploaded facebook photos of everyone there having the time of their lives
-Scream Fuck The World
-Remember why I want a better life
-Remember that I'll Never Get it
-Fuck.

Confession:

I have not engaged in sober kissing since I was fourteen years old.

Harsh

Optimism Peace the fug OUT!

i tried to be optimistic and positive and open for SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO long. Peace out to that. Everyone in this world is selfish. Everything each individual does is for personal gain. There is nobody in this world who genuinely, 100 % of the time cares for another. Fuck you all very much. For destroying me. For making me this hard bitch. That's what you've done. You can't be nice and survive in this world. It's not possible.

Good one.

Totally Understandable.