attention, attention, may i have all your eyes &ears

I've been lacking on my writing lately. I crave attention so badly, it's sickening. PEOPLE! PEOPLE! These people around me drive me insane, yet i need them to stay sane. The way these people look with their eyes and mouths, The way these people laugh with their teeth and larynx, The things these people do to impress other people, The things these people do to be noticed, to hurt, to keep, to please, to shock... The way peoples muscles are sculpted just perfectly, or the comforting humanity of that layer of fatty tissue over the abdominal muscles that have gone unnoticed. People rule this earth. Animals are beautiful, and ugly, and feel just as we do, but they are put here for the continuation of the food chain. The Humans are at the top. The humans have brains which all work differently. Some brains have deficiencies from problems that go wrong in the process of development. Some Brains are absorbent and filled with knowledge and wisdom. These previously mentioned brains, make the normal brains feel melancholy, leading to my next topic. Some brains feel so melancholy, they need drugs to make them function in a socially acceptable manner. Some brains that once had abosorption, lose it within a quick instant. Some brains can't remember their own sons and daughters and mothers. Some brains absorb too much, or not enough, causing them to have inbalance. These people, with their eyes, and mouths, and organs, and bones, and blood, and skin are so unbelievably complicated. We love them. We hate them. We envy them. We never meet many of them. We seem to be surrounded by the same ones a lot. We meet new ones, sometimes. We meet the one, someday, or never. This life we live is so hard, that it's almost cruel when people say something is "easy." Every person is different. Every brain, every heart, every liver, every kidney, every skin. The differences in all of us people is what continues to interest us. It's ashame how often the word bored is used. This slump of boredem is here, to make the AMAZING, INCREDIBLE, ORGASMIC moments deserve caps lock. I'm craving my AMAZING moments so badly right now. I need the people to help me to get there...happily. I need my brain to allow me to succeed. I need my weaknesses to help others with weaknesses feel stronger, feel less alone. I need other people's weaknesses to make me feel better, too. Every person is made to have the same worth, so more people should allow their brains to open, and their guards to descend. We must accept these people, for whatever reason we use them for now will one day divide and separate into swift winds, and we will need them for reasons we are yet to know.

who am i?

I think i hate this part of my life; this age. What am i supposed to be? We continue to be pushed to succeed, to always do well. Things are happening at 50 miles a minute when you can't take it, and when your ready for something, it never happens, at least not yet. Nothing happens when your ready, it seems spontaneity has the upper hand. People continue to judge, point out your flaws, excentuate your weaknesses, and downsize your worth. Young people continue to make stupid decisions, but so do adults. Will people ever learn? Stupid decisions can cause a minor bump in the road, or change your life forever. We never know what WILL happen, but we do know what CAN happen. Taking a lip gloss from a store is against the law, yet people are paying to have someONE they created ripped to bloody, grisly pieces, and be placed in bowls and buckets and then disposed of. And, this is legal. All the things that happen in this world, make people question themselves. You have known yourself your whole life, yet situations that you have just, in the last minute, been faced with make you forget yourself. Some people willingly cross fields and fields , that look more like dark alley ways, to reach the league that they feel they are not in. People can forget things as easily as another person remembers the same things. You are who you are. You are HUMAN! You do not have special powers. You're better at this, than she is at this, but she's better at that. Use what you have to your advantage. It is so hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but make sure you get there. Push through the obstacles standing in front of you in order to get there, even when it is unbearable. DON'T LOSE YOURSELF in the tunnel, or the fields, or the dark alley ways. You may not know who you are at times, but one day you'll know, exactly. When you know, you have all the power in the world.