what did she say?

Mmm what you say?
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well, of course you did
Mmm what you say?
Mmm that it's all for the best
Ah, off course it is.
Mmm what you say?
Mm that it's just what we need?
And you decided this?
Mmm what you say?
Mm, WHAT DID SHE SAYYYY?

Hipocracy

It's funny how people say one thing over and over again, and then do the opposite over and over again. This has been happening since the dawn of time and will continue to happen until the end. Will people ever change? Probably not. There is always this human thing inside of us forcing us to do anything to feel acceptance and continuously trying to accept others, no matter how much they have damaged you in the past, or at least how much you state they have, when they are NOT in your presence. Human existence is the most complex and hard to understand. We will continue to try, simply because we are human.

easily serious, to seriously easy?

The stress of the school year is slowly creeping back, and i'm trying not to let it consume me. I hate when people are serious, i hate having to be serious, about anything, especially pertaining to my life. I need to get out. I need to get out of here quickly. I need to get out of here before all seriousness eats me alive. I need to go to a place where nothing is serious and everythings easy, so i won't feel like I have to put my built up life's work into making things happen. I continue to wonder... can things ever happen on their own? Not in my life, they don't. Everything that I've ever wanted to happen, I've had to make happen. I've thought about this, and this is true; nature is not on my side. Horoscopes Lie... There's no fate... If you want something, you must go for it. If you don't want something, you must try your best to avoid it. And if you are forced to do things, you must do them with your best effort if you want to make it out. This is done so that we can learn to depend on ourselves instead of these so called forces of the universe. We do this because it is what's real. We do this in order to have a reward of ease, once we get out of the cloud of seriousness, and make ourselves.

something i've never consistently felt..until now?

For some reason... lately i've been really happy. I feel like I can possibly make it in the world. My life is pretty boring and uneventful, so the fact that I feel this way is mind-altering. I am not thrilled about starting school again, considering when I was younger I thought I'd be experiencing a way more successful life by this time, especially by this time. I am not there yet, not even close, but I feel like i've needed it for so long that I will have it some day. Hopefully, sooner rather than later. Damn I love Richard Gere, sorry my mind has now wondered to my television set. Me and my mother both have this strange Richard Gere obsession. This started when I was 4 years old. I just recently found out that my mother shared this obsession with me, and it's Creepy. Anyway, my craving for success is becoming stronger with each day, so i need it, i need it bad. If i'm happy now, just think of the ecstasy I will feel when I'm accomplished!

"Teenage dreams in a teenage circus
Running around like a clown on purpose
Who gives a damn about the family you come from?
No givin up when you’re young and you want some"

MIKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

my world

I think I have writer's block. I haven't gone this long without writing in forever. I'm really lonely. I'm craving attention. I miss the faces of my peers. Everone's got their own thing in summer. If force is the only way I can be around people, than maybe I'm more ready for school to begin than i thought. If I hear anything about Jon and Kate Gosselin one more time I think I'll drink gasoline. Every year I have a birthday, I get older, yet the setting remains the same. Not only is the setting the same, but just about every aspect of my life as well. I need to do something. I need to get busy. I need to get busy doing something that I know will be great. I need to make a dent in somebody else's life so that I don't remain forgotten. I need a project. Nothing has gone as planned with my world and my life. I better get to work or things will only get harder.

death of icons

EVERYBODY IS DYING! THIS HAS GOT TO STOP!

Today, not only FARRAH FAWCETT, but MICHAEL JACKSON both died.

this is ridic!
Marilyn Monroe, James Dean, Elvis, John Lennon, John Belucci, River Phoenix, Princess Diana, Anna Nicole, Heath Ledger, Natasha Richardson, David Carradine... WHY!

well, on this day I will remember the feathered hair, and famous poster, and the legend that is Farrah Fawcett

and listen to Billie jean, thriller, smooth criminal, bad, Beat it, etc. and remember the king of pop.


R.I.P