from robots to juggernauts

Why are people so afraid to be who they really are, and not who people want them to be?

The sickest thing i've ever seen is when 2 absolute opposites spend about 2 days together and morph into one skin.
They throw all their unique characteristics away, even though that was all they had to make them interesting, and a good friend, and worth spending time with in the first place.

they become lost. A thing of the past. You see little bits and pieces of the old personalities slip out from time to time, but for the majority...they become robots, programmed by the person they let be in control of them, and when those persons morph together they become a huge juggernaut crushing everything and everyone in it's path. the apathy is gone. the emotion is gone. the compassion is gone. the happiness is gone. the fun is gone. A friend is gone.

we're not all toms and gatsbys

here's to the Nick Carraway's of the world.

we all just want to fit in.

pills for thrills

When you enter the world, nobody ever tells you that you need synthetic ingredients to live happily, or live simply without going completely insane. It's just something you'll learn throughout time, lived out in awkward glances, hurtful remarks, and complete ignorance. Also, an alcoholic grandmother, a wanna-be stage mom with (even if she doesn't want to admit it) some of the same genetic- makeup of her mother, a bipolar brother that gets high more often than he visits, and a sexual-orientation confused sister..can just about do it. Sometimes I think humans should have a label on their side stating their ingredients, like food. 3 pills a day to be pretty and maintain self-esteem. 1 pill a day to stay sane. 1 pill a day just because if you miss a day, your hormones get all fucked up. And, 1 pill a day for your iron deficiency causing your anemia. But, then again, If we all had labels on our sides, would we be judged more harshly? or, Would people hold their comments back to spare our feelings? One thing is for sure, It would definitely destroy that element of mystery. The element that I sometimes REALLY need. I feel so much more important, knowing that people know nothing about me. I can give them withering stares. I can flash a pathetic half smile. I can strut like the world is my oyster. I can be who ever I want to be, and as long as I am convinced that I am that person, everyone else will be too. That is the reason we can't have labels stuck to our sides, because we're not products, we are people. And if people judged us immediately based upon the pills we take, the family we have, and the friends we choose to hang out with, then we would never be able to tell those people the story behind these ingredients, and how they came to be, and how we feel about them. And until people decide they really want to know YOU, then the element of mystery never gets dull.(at least in my opinion)